With Deep Blues and Greens

So, it looks like my archives are in Portuguese. I'm not really sure how it got that way and am even less sure about how to change it, but I like it so it's staying. Eu suponho este significa que eu estou indo ser bilíngüe para por algum tempo.



Things are going really great right now. Though I have few hours at work and though things are just kind of plodding day by day, it's all good. I'm really excited to go to Redlands in less than a month and I can't wait to just be the daughter again for a little bit. Being an adult can be exhausting! American Idol is having its finale tonight as well; this is only a good thing because I have gotten bored with it and I just want it to be over. Essentially, my life revolves around road trips and competitive reality TV. Yay! :-p






See? Home looks fun, right? Hahaha, I think Mom and Caleb look so cute in this picture.

Makes Me Wonder

I know, I know. I can already tell what you're thinking.

"Oh, Holly. This is just ANOTHER photo of a baby. A cute one, for sure, but kinda blah, right?"

No, no, my friends. This is Kirk Hoskins and he is the first little baby that I've ever seen my husband hold. Not only was it the most wonderful thing I've ever seen, it gave me a real notion of what it would be like to have him be the father of my children. And it was a good, great vision; Caleb carried around Kirk to check the email and to watch Transformers, he changed his little diaper and put on Kirk's blue and white feetsie pajamas. There is nothing I want more now than to have a baby, not just to fit in with the other mommys or to smell the scent of baby lotion, but because I want to watch my husband be what I really think his calling in life is: a daddy.

Therefore, this isn't just another picture - it's part of a moment in time when I saw something in my husband that I hope he sees in himself soon.

I Just Wonder

This picture was taken on a big, wonderful, awesome, perfect birthday extravaganza that was organized specifically for that cute boy in it. I took Caleb to Heber/Park City over his birthday weekend; we fell in love with those cities when we drove down Main Street months ago and felt right at home. It was the perfect getaway, filled with Spiderman 3, delicious pizza and jetted tubs.

I promise, it was the most flawless day I've ever had. And it wasn't even MY birthday.



Life has been going along at a pretty good clip lately. Everyone's hours are getting cut at work, so for the next three weeks I'm only working 3 days a week; this leaves me lots of time for potential housecleaning and scrapbooking, but it has evolved into chatting with Caleb online and dealing with the hot weather outside. I've started working on my 12 x12 scrapbooking and it's going okay. Working out on the treadmill has been going great and I feel better already; the only thing I'm nervous about is whether or not the house will get so hot in the summer that I'll be hesitant to make myself more hot on purpose. We'll cross that bridge when we come to it though, eh? I guess the biggest thing that is the MOST hilarious is a huge misunderstanding that I had with myself and my artistic vision.





Do you see this baby? Do you see the words that go along with this baby? Once upon a time, 5 weeks ago or so, I was convinced that I was pregnant. I was so sure, in fact, that I made a secret postcard for postsecret telling the whole world, since I knew Caleb doesn't want to reveal any pregnancy until he has had some time to adjust to it.

Weeks and a period later, I'm soooo not pregnant. But, nicely enough, someone commented on the website about my secret:

-----Email Message-----
Sent: Sunday, May 13, 2007 7:41 AM
Subject: Last postcard

I just found out yesterday that I was pregnant! Everytime I think about it I start crying with joy. You are going to be a terrific parent, see you on the playground!


That makes me happy for that new little mommy, even though I probably won't see her on the playground for awhile.



And, as always, The Office. The season finale is tonight and I've been having a lot of Office dreams. Last night, it was that I was Pam, and the rest of the Office cast was on the reality show "Shear Genius" and we were all making hair styles for figure skaters. My mannequin head started out with pixie blonde hair, but as I started styling it, it became long and brunette. Obviously, Pam had her final cut in my dream. Anyway, I hope that I will be exponentially in love with The Office tomorrow morning.

Knocked Up

I made a mistake today.

I ate dinner at 5 and then slept for two hours. And now, here I am, after "American Idol," totally feeling whacked out and a little grumpy.

It's definitely not the company; Caleb and I have really enjoyed being together in the evenings without homework or anything to distract us. It almost makes me want to play the lottery so we have the shot of spending all day every day together! But, I don't want to sound cheesy, so I'll just leave it at - I like Caleb.

What I think it is, more than anything, is that because summer is a little more chill, I also have a lot of time to think. A lot of time to worry, a lot of time to think about crazy things and a lot of time to wonder about things that have happened and some things that will never happen. I don't know how to get rid of all this stuff, seeing as I know people read this blog (as opposed to a totally private journal), but I guess that's what I get for having a husband who likes to link to me.

I miss my sisters, who have taken a road trip to Redlands and I want them to come home now.